Making A Difference

开工了。。

7月1号，他正式开工了。。需要完成的任务，真的不少。。他的压力也会增加吗？就是因为想把任务完成，就给了自己很多压力。。曼绒就靠他了，所以信心不足的他，就求上帝来充满信心给他吧。。

以赛亚毕业后，我看到了他的一些改变，也就是我所渴望的。。最重要还是一颗寻求上帝的心，辅导和事奉。。30天过后，又会带来怎么样的改变呢？KL一日游的活动已完成了，我们总算轻松了。。可是其他的任务不一定那么简单。。他的信心，又怎么样了呢？

很多东西烦，很多东西想。。大结局是怎么样的呢？8月才知道吧。。暂时，我需要做的就是停止那胡思乱想的态度吧。。

THE ANT & THE CONTACT LENS

Brenda was almost halfway to the top of the tremendous granite cliff. She was standing on a ledge where she was taking a breather during this, her first rock climb. As she rested there, the safety rope snapped against her eye and knocked out her contact lens. “Great,” she thought. “Here I am on a rock ledge, hundreds of feet from the bottom and hundreds of feet to the top of this cliff, and now my sight is blurry.” She looked and looked, hoping that somehow it had landed on the ledge. But it just wasn’t there.

She felt the panic rising in her, so she began praying. She prayed for calmness, and she prayed that she may find her contact lens.

When she got to the top, a friend examined her eye and her clothing for the lens, but it was no where to be found. Although she was calm, now that she was at the top, she was saddened because she could not clearly see across the range of mountains. Suddenly, she remembered the Bible verse “THE EYES OF THE LORD RUNS TO AND FRO THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE EARTH.”

She thought, “Lord, You can see all these mountains. You know every stone and leaf, and You know exactly where my contact lens is. Please help me!”

Later, when they had hiked down the trail to the bottom of the cliff, they met another party of climbers just starting up the face of the cliff. One of them shouted out, “Hey you guys! Anybody lose a contact lens?”

Well, that would be startling enough, but you know why the climber saw it? An ant was moving slowly across a twig on the face of the rock, carrying it!

The story doesn’t end there. Brenda’s father is a cartoonist. When she told him the incredible story of the ant, the prayer and the contact lens, he drew a cartoon of an ant lugging the contact lens with the caption. “Lord, I don’t know why You want me to carry this thing. I can’t eat it, and it’s awfully heavy. But if this is what You want me to do, I’ll carry it for You.”

I think it would do all of us some good to say, “God, I don’t know why You want me to carry this “burden”. I can see no good in it, and it’s awfully heavy. But if You want me to carry it, I will.” I don’t know why You want me to carry the burden of the growing fibroid, but if You have a purpose to it (although my decision is hysterectomy), I will press through.

Moral of the story:

1)  God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

2)  God knows ALL that we are going through. 

YOU WILL NEVER WALK ALONE

Along life’s road

There will be sunshine and rain

Roses and thorns

Laughter and pain

And ‘cross the miles

You will face mountains so steep

Desert so long and valley so deep

Sometimes the journey’s gentle

Sometimes the cold winds blow

But I want you to remember

I want you to know

** You will never walk alone

As long as you have faith

Jesus will be right beside you

All the way

You may feel you’re far from home

But home is where He is

He’ll be there down every road

You will never walk alone

The path will wind

You will find wonders and fears

Labors of love and a few falling tears

Across the years

There will be some twists and turns

Mistakes to make and lessons to learn

Sometimes the journey’s gentle

Sometimes the cold wins blow

But I want you to remember

I want you to know

Bridge: Jesus knows your joy

Jesus knows fears

He will go the distance with you

FAITHFULLY

What a right timing!! Just when I needed some assurance!!

A Hymn of Gratitude…

A HYMN OF GRATITUDE

Your mercies flow down from Your holy throne

Precious favor none that I deserve

Amazing grace that saved my wretched soul

Now all that I have is in Your hands

Now I can walk life, see Your beauty here

I’ve tasted freedom, power of Your Word

You have turned my tears into pure joy

Lord, in Your arms is where I belong

** How could I ever live without You

Nothing I desire Lord but Your delight

Lord, have my heart Thy will be done

Lord, make my life an instrument of Your delight

Dedicate my life to honor You

Raise my hands surrender to Your purpose Lord

Coz You’re my dream, my one desire

Come be the centre of my life I pray my

I KNOW WHO HOLDS TOMORROW

I don’t know about tomorrow

I just live from day to day

I don’t borrow from its sunshine

For its skies may turn to gray

I don’t worry o’er the future

For I know what Jesus said

And today I’ll walk beside Him

For He knows what is ahead

** Many things about tomorrow

I don’t seem to understand

But I know who holds tomorrow

And I know who holds my hand

I don’t know about tomorrow

It may bring me poverty

But the One who feeds the sparrow

Is the One who stands by me

And the path that be my portion

May be through the flame or flood

But His presence goes before me

And I’m covered with His blood

Every step is getting brighter

As the golden stairs I climb

Ev’ry burden’s getting lighter

Ev’ry cloud is silver lined

There the sun is always shining

There no tear will dim the eyes

At the ending of the rainbow

Where the mountains touch the sky

Thanks, Uncle Steve, for producing such a beautiful thing!! Glory to God for your talents It is indeed a comfort in valley-times!! I will always remember these 2 songs. Especially your “Hymn of Gratitude”!!

爽。。

脚痛，体累，流汗。。虽然前面那两个是非常不好受的感觉，可是后果是最爽的。。当我穿好鞋子拿着 walker 准备要走路时，那种心情是非常 sian 的。。很多时候都想放弃自己，不想再努力走路,因为很痛又很累。。每一次，我都会很不甘愿的完成那 20 round，哈哈。。

可是，当我有这种放弃的态度，我的脑里，就会想起那些脊脆骨受伤 (Spinal Chord Injury – SCI) 的残障朋友们。。毕竟，我自己的男友是 SCI 的受害者。。他曾经是一位打篮球的运动员，就因为 10 年前的跳水以外，导致不能走路。。完全不能走路的感觉，虽然我体验不到，可是我了解那失去了自由的感受。。所以，就算是依靠walker来行走，我还是非常感恩！！

对着了电脑好几个小时，今天就忽然间很想流汗。。就逼自己穿鞋走路。。完成了那 20 round 过后，真的很有满足感，呵呵。。以后的日子，看看有没有机会下班过后就一起和男友去公园走走，取掉当天的任何压力

Rounded…

Ankle/feet swelling causes fat legs. See how rounded both my feet are. Partly because of the very cold autumn weather. My sis and I were just bunking in for a few days over at Eunice’s room in Melbourne, so I had no choice but to sleep on the floor. Early the next morning, because it was so super freezing cold (I am serious! 11 degrees and it can get even lower), I had spasms, and because of that, a terrible cramp on both feet when my mom pulled me up to sit on the wheelchair. Makes my shoes one size tighter.

I am grateful for the sun now. Haha. Hopefully my feet will shrink back to it’s normal size soon.

A vision…

It was brought to memory 3 of the similar visions and/or prophecies that has been spoken way back when I was still in Grace Assembly. A vision from God is a prophecy to be fulfilled. It has been spoken, yet along the way it has been forgotten. But then again, He is faithful, therefore it has been agreed on as it has been brought back to memory as a confirmation.

A vision of going into the outskirts to give charity to the children. A vision that says I was seen driving a RED car. How specific can it get? A vision that approves my passion. A vision that now left me speechless as I recall that pastor prophesying on me. I can’t wait!! I am leaving my comfort zone to start doing what God speaks to my little heart. Anticipation of the whole event burns as a passion.

Don’t play play with God-given visions and God-given dreams. A dream with regards to a previous relationship that was going downhill can prove to that. Wei said this while I was chatting with him on msn: “Walao Elaine, looks like you got hooked to a b*g sh*t!” Haha. An elevating faith is all I need to see what others may not yet have seen. Reverend Edmund Chan puts FAITH as Forsaking All, I Trust Him. What beautiful revelation as I decide to forsake all therefore have nothing at all in hand, afterwhich I can trust Him to provide.

May the vision be fulfilled in His timing.

失望。。

我还以为100天过后，我的心情会比100天前好很多。。怎知道，是比100天以前更差。。我是否要求太高了？我很想赶快解决了这些“痛苦”。。某某人都很喜欢找架和我吵，嗨。。是妒嫉吗？是看我不顺眼吗？我很失望的就是因为交通安排到不好，就当我的错。。好吧，就我的错吧。。看来我的地位都不是很稳定。。真是有点失望，嗨。。

无论如何，他的毕业典礼，一定要有照片咯。。 恭喜你成功毕业了!! 希望我不会再失望咯。。

CONGRATULATIONS, MY DEAR!!

Finally, the end of the separation!! Finally ended my countdown. Phew… Tomorrow is his graduation from a 100 days in Bible College Life before and after this 100 days period will make a 180 degrees turn and I am anticipating it with great pride and joy. Darling, congratulations for completing your God-given task… Thanks for setting an example in everything!! You are in for greater heights, and I believe you can do it… Prove it :-* See you tomorrow.

(Pictures after the graduation… Camera is with him, haha…)