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Manjung!!

It is a nice place, I heard, both the centre and Sitiawan itself. By googling pictures of that place, I saw for myself the awesome beauty of it. But nothing beats seeing than being at the real place. People asked how was the place, my answer… “我爱上那个地方了！” Both exterior and interior. Not forgetting the fact that it is such a quiet and peaceful place. And economical too. A plate of noodle + a cup of tea = RM 3.60. KL will force you to bring out a 5 ringgit bill, without change.

 Ooh, and most of the electrical appliances you will see, was sponsored by Mr. Alan of D’Legend LCD & Hifi Sdn Bhd, next to MURNI Restaurant. Pretty stuff. Thanks to Mr. Alan for making the house look almost complete.

 Things are going slowly, but assuredly, I hope. I can never praise God enough. His hometown friend, Alicia, has gotten back to us with really good news:

 Foo Ping,

 Good news!  I managed to get 10 used PCs for you (about 3 years old).  One of the schools here in Brunei is changing out their computers and the head of IT agrees to give 10 PCs to you.

In a separate mail:

Foo Ping,

The spec of the computer as below:

 Make:               HP

Model:              Dx-5150

CPU:                Intel P4 2.8GHz

HDD:                40 – 80 Gb

RAM:                512 to 1 gig Mb

Network:           1000Mb Network Interface Card

CD-ROM:          No

Monitor:            17″ TFT

Case:                Small Form

Weight is approx 15kg per machine set with powercables and keyboard.

Weight of lcd – hp1706 – Weight: 10.1 lbs

 Rgds,

Alicia.

What better assets can we exchange for just a prayer a day? All Glory MUST go back to Him. AMEN?

With this evidence, and for the fact that the 10 pc’s will be used for training purposes, I can trust him that my standing will not be jeopardized. I am still counting down, my dear. Manjung, wait for me!!

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THE MISSING RIB

I am the one with the missing rib. How long will I have to put up with this? A promise is a promise. I am counting on you as I begin my countdown to the promised day. It was all an assumption when feedbacks were about it being secluded. I really fell in love with that peaceful, economical lifestyle, yet a place full of opportunities.

Situations here have changed. I will switch my channel and put on earplugs to shut off any and all unnecessary “disposable items”. I will silently anticipate the countdowns. The missing rib in me will only be patched again when I see fulfilled promises. I missed the times you were my voice. I missed the hush-hush moments. Gulp!

I missed the times when I served chicken liver, the times when I was fed my favorite “lok-lok”. Times when I bought your favorite waffle from the hospital. The Saturday visitations to the car dealer and admiring the sporty VIVA. I do not understand why the change of words, but you asked me to trust you, I will. But please don’t take too long.

Again, I can’t help but “choke”.

DISAPPOINTED!!

It was the worst news I ever received yesterday. Here I am, with so much anticipation, and there I find freezing cold water gushing down on my “burning hopes”. As if the stupid fibroid is not enough of a burden to me, this had to come piercing through my ears. I was disappointed and speechless that the “magic roses” that could change my life was “trampled” just like that. Pretending to be strong on the outwards does not promise that I will never break down. But heck, even if I break down and rain buckets of tears, would anyone understand?

Yes, there will be people who will understand. But for now, I have to say that I would prefer keeping it to only within 3 persons. Me, my Jesus, and my beloved. If you were to judge me and say I don’t have enough faith, then why the empty “gongs”? Because the fact is clear that I had so much of faith, but all I needed was just that 5 seconds of “resounding gong” to tear my confidence into bits. What happened to all the beautiful “roses” that was offered in order to boost my confidence? You gave it to me, and now you take it back?

I still have the history of our conversation saved in my pc. Will I be able to withstand the “betrayal”? My darling told me to give two months for the disappointments to heal. Hell or dream? His farewell party is this Thursday. Will I be in the right state of mind to attend?

小小的梦想

It’s just a little dream

蓝天是白云最美的故乡                                  

Lan tian shi bai yun zui mei de gu xiang

大地是小草成长的地方

Da di shi xiao cao cheng zhang de di fang

海洋是河流安歇的暖房

Hai yang shi he liu an xie de nuan fang

梦想是未来幸福天堂

Meng xiang shi wei lai xing fu tian tang

**  小小的梦想能成就大事

Xiao xiao de meng xiang cheng jiu da shi

只要仰望天父的力量

Zhi yao yang wang tian fu de li liang

小小的梦想能改变世界

Xiao xiao de meng xiang neng gai bian shi jie

带来明天的盼望

Dai lai ming tian de pan wang

蓝天是白云最美的故乡

Lan tian shi bai yun zui mei de gu xiang

大地是小草成长的地方

Da di shi xiao cao cheng zhang de di fang

海洋是河流安歇的暖房

Hai yang shi he liu an xie de nuan fang

梦想是未来幸福天堂

Meng xiang shi wei lai xing fu tian tang

## 耶和华是我们的力量

Ye he hua shi wo men de li liang

同心来为主传扬  来发光

Tong xin lai wei zhu chuan yang  lai fa guang

前面的道路悄然交给他

Qian mian de dao lu qiao ran jiao gei ta

他必同在  使我们刚强

Ta bi tong zai  shi wo men gang qiang

BEAUTIFUL PHRASES…

Give God what’s right, not what’s left.

Man’s way leads to hopeless end, God’s way leads to endless hope.

A lot of kneeling will keep you in good standing.

He who kneels before God can stand before anyone.

In the sentence of life, the devil may be a comma, but never let him be the period.

Don’t put a question mark where God puts a period.

Are you wrinkled with burden? Come to church for a face-lift.

When praying, don’t give God instructions, just report for duty.

Don’t wait for six strong men to take you to church.

We don’t change God’s message, His message changes us.

The church is prayer-conditioned.

When God ordains, He sustains.

Warning: Exposure to the Son may prevent burning.

Plan ahead. It wasn’t raining when Noah built the ark.

Most people want to serve God, but only in an advisory position.

Suffering from truth decay? Brush up on your Bible.

Exercise daily. Walk with the Lord.

Never give the devil a ride. He will always want to drive.

Nothing else ruins the truth like stretching it.

Compassion is difficult to give away because it keeps coming back.

He who angers you controls you.

Worry is the “dark room” in which negative can develop.

Give Satan an inch, and he’ll be a ruler.

Be ye fishers’ of man. You catch them and He clean them up.

He doesn’t call the qualified. He qualifies the call.

This blog doesn’t allow me to do many things lately… Can’t post pictures, can’t highlight the sentences in colours, can’t insert bullets. But anyhow, I like sentences No. 12th, 22nd & 25th. Go do your own maths.

12) When God ordains, He sustains. ~ This is very much an encouragement to my beloved and I (more so for my beloved) in terms of taking up the challenge given. This is because when we are given a task and/or responsibility, many a times, we may not be able to accomplish it. But we want to be able to say, “Here am I, send me!!”

22) Worry is the “dark room” in which negative can develop. ~ It has taught me that worrying means we do not trust God enough to be totally surrendered to His will, therefore we are still not living in peace but in fear. I have promised to learn to trust and not doubt Him.

25) He doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the call. ~ This is indeed a comforting & encouraging confidence booster when our low self-esteem tells us that we are nobodies and are not good enough for the task given. It is a good reminder for us to look at our BIG God rather than focus on weaknesses.

安静 – Still

MANDARIN VERSION:

藏我在  翅膀荫下

Cang wo zai  chi bang yin xia

遮盖我  在你大能手中

Zhe gai wo  zai ni da neng shou zhong

** 当大海翻腾  波濤汹涌

Dang da hai fan teng  bo tao xiong yong

我与你展翅暴风上空

Wo yu ni zhan chi bao feng shang kong

父你仍做王在洪水中

Fu ni reng zuo wang zai hong shui zhong

我要安静  知你是神

Wo yao an jing  zhi ni shi shen

我灵安息  在基督里

Wo ling an xi  zai ji du li

你大能  使我安然信靠

Ni da neng  shi wo an ran xin kao

ENGLISH VERSION:

Hide me now  under Your wings

Cover me  within Your mighty hands

** When the oceans rise and thunders roar

I will soar with You above the storms

Father You are King over the flood

I will be still know You are God

Find rest my soul  in Christ alone

Know His pow’r  in quietness and trust

The English version is nothing new, but the mandarin version is something that I have been curious about. I get to hear it yesterday, at the New Life Chinese church prayer meeting. It always seems like a confirmation when I am on the verge of giving up and giving in to the doubts and questions running in my head.

It always amazes me how He really speaks. Just when I thought that He may have forgotten me, haha. It wouldn’t have been depressing enough if He would just give me an answer to the dilemma that I am facing now. Why the reluctance of hysterectomy when I have had enough and all I want is OUT of this test. All I want is to quit pretending to be strong and just let the tears flood. All I want (and need) is a firm hug to tell me “Everything is gonna be ok. You are not alone.”

But like the story of the ant carrying the contact lens, if it is really Your will that I carry this “cross”, then please give me the strength to face it. And please assure me that I am not facing it alone. Because the truth is that I am tired. Physically, mentally and emotionally tired. Tired of having to go through sh*t, tired of clever opinions from all angles.

I may not know Your purpose for all these, but help me to hang on to Your promise in Jeremiah 29:11.

开工了。。

7月1号，他正式开工了。。需要完成的任务，真的不少。。他的压力也会增加吗？就是因为想把任务完成，就给了自己很多压力。。曼绒就靠他了，所以信心不足的他，就求上帝来充满信心给他吧。。

以赛亚毕业后，我看到了他的一些改变，也就是我所渴望的。。最重要还是一颗寻求上帝的心，辅导和事奉。。30天过后，又会带来怎么样的改变呢？KL一日游的活动已完成了，我们总算轻松了。。可是其他的任务不一定那么简单。。他的信心，又怎么样了呢？

很多东西烦，很多东西想。。大结局是怎么样的呢？8月才知道吧。。暂时，我需要做的就是停止那胡思乱想的态度吧。。

THE ANT & THE CONTACT LENS

Brenda was almost halfway to the top of the tremendous granite cliff. She was standing on a ledge where she was taking a breather during this, her first rock climb. As she rested there, the safety rope snapped against her eye and knocked out her contact lens. “Great,” she thought. “Here I am on a rock ledge, hundreds of feet from the bottom and hundreds of feet to the top of this cliff, and now my sight is blurry.” She looked and looked, hoping that somehow it had landed on the ledge. But it just wasn’t there.

She felt the panic rising in her, so she began praying. She prayed for calmness, and she prayed that she may find her contact lens.

When she got to the top, a friend examined her eye and her clothing for the lens, but it was no where to be found. Although she was calm, now that she was at the top, she was saddened because she could not clearly see across the range of mountains. Suddenly, she remembered the Bible verse “THE EYES OF THE LORD RUNS TO AND FRO THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE EARTH.”

She thought, “Lord, You can see all these mountains. You know every stone and leaf, and You know exactly where my contact lens is. Please help me!”

Later, when they had hiked down the trail to the bottom of the cliff, they met another party of climbers just starting up the face of the cliff. One of them shouted out, “Hey you guys! Anybody lose a contact lens?”

Well, that would be startling enough, but you know why the climber saw it? An ant was moving slowly across a twig on the face of the rock, carrying it!

The story doesn’t end there. Brenda’s father is a cartoonist. When she told him the incredible story of the ant, the prayer and the contact lens, he drew a cartoon of an ant lugging the contact lens with the caption. “Lord, I don’t know why You want me to carry this thing. I can’t eat it, and it’s awfully heavy. But if this is what You want me to do, I’ll carry it for You.”

I think it would do all of us some good to say, “God, I don’t know why You want me to carry this “burden”. I can see no good in it, and it’s awfully heavy. But if You want me to carry it, I will.” I don’t know why You want me to carry the burden of the growing fibroid, but if You have a purpose to it (although my decision is hysterectomy), I will press through.

Moral of the story:

1)  God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

2)  God knows ALL that we are going through. 

YOU WILL NEVER WALK ALONE

Along life’s road

There will be sunshine and rain

Roses and thorns

Laughter and pain

And ‘cross the miles

You will face mountains so steep

Desert so long and valley so deep

Sometimes the journey’s gentle

Sometimes the cold winds blow

But I want you to remember

I want you to know

** You will never walk alone

As long as you have faith

Jesus will be right beside you

All the way

You may feel you’re far from home

But home is where He is

He’ll be there down every road

You will never walk alone

The path will wind

You will find wonders and fears

Labors of love and a few falling tears

Across the years

There will be some twists and turns

Mistakes to make and lessons to learn

Sometimes the journey’s gentle

Sometimes the cold wins blow

But I want you to remember

I want you to know

Bridge: Jesus knows your joy

Jesus knows fears

He will go the distance with you

FAITHFULLY

What a right timing!! Just when I needed some assurance!!